I've Moved:- Permanently!

Hi guys,

As google AdSense do not allow monetizing for this Personal Blog that I have, I have decided to Move PERMANENTLY  to my new blog:-

http://legal-babe.blogspot.com/

Where I blog about Legal Talk and Life's Finest Adventures. Get in touch with what's Hot in the Legal World, as well as New adventures that I have been up to, Places I've gone to, and Photos I have taken along the way!

This explains why I have not been dropping by your blogs lately as I have been trying to get the whole monetizing thing going.. Many apologies! The next time you see me, I'll be blogging from the new blog! Ü

See you there!

For the last time, Over and out.

What is Life?

“What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.”

    

What To Do When You Have a Cancer Patient At Home.

The word Cancer is extremely common today that it scares me. Having been a survivor, and losing both my parents to it, I am, without a doubt, no stranger to this disease. While I did lose my mother to breast cancer, it was my dad's battle with stomach cancer that really taught me what I am about to write today.

When cancer strikes, it does not only affect the patient, but also family members of the patient. Dealing with the disease as a family member do not make it easier than dealing with it as a patient. Having fought alongside dad for exactly one year, here is what I have learnt:-

The Do's:

• Know your stuffs - if not as much as the doctor, enough to let the doctors know that you had done your research on the sickness and you know enough to make sure they do their job well and without malpractice. It saves my dad three times, and prolonged his life span and most importantly, it gave us more time together.

• Eat healthy alongside the patient - As a patient, he / she are naturally not allowed to consume the yummy greasy food that we are used to. In order to encourage them to stick to the healthy diet provided by the nutritionists or doctor, eat the food that they eat! Trust me, it is a lot of encouragement and you get a healthier, better lifestyle.

• Enrol in a gym or Work-out - my dad had always been my hero, and I was extremely close and attached to him after losing my mom at the age of 1. He was the only one I always look up to. Needless to say that when he was diagnosed with cancer, it hit me really badly. I enrolled myself in a gym, and I find that working out keeps me sane and focused. Whatever pent up frustrations I had, I lashed it out on the treadmill and in Body Combat classes.

• Cry, when given a chance - You are sad, and pent-up. Angry at life, at your family, at God. So cry! Crying serves as an instant relief and it lessens the stress in you.

Of course, the crux of it all is:

• Spend as much time as you possibly can with your love one - Time is of essence here.. There are chances that with the right form of treatment, patient may go into remission. At the same time, bear in mind that at the moment, there are no permanent cure to this disease. So please, I implore you, to try your level best to spend as much quality time as you can with the patient. I tried my level best to be with my dad every single day for the past one year, and even then, I did not feel as though it was sufficient, and every single day, I wished I could turn back time, and spend even more time with him.

These points listed above are by no means my own personal point of view and experience. While I was in a state of depression upon finding out that dad was diagnosed with cancer, I realized I had no where to go to emotionally. I did not know where to look for assistance. I did not know what to do. Simply put, I was totally lost. Thus, I hope this article, will assist you, if not all, but some, and help you find your footing in dealing with having a cancer patient at home. 

Always bear in mind, in order for the patient to believe in living, YOU have to remain hopeful. Take care of your emotions, and you will be emotionally strong enough to support and encourage the patient to keep living. For them to fight the war, YOU need to fight WITH them. 

You're Funny.

When I first posted the Formspring.me box on the right corner of my blog, I would have expected all sorts of questions coming my way.. This morning, what is funny is that I got a question from an "anonymous" person asking me extremely personal things about my personal life rather rudely, which was surprising, as apparently, this person is apparently "Educated".

Woman, you bring a whole new meaning to the word Educated. Perhaps, word of the day may be Lack of Mannerism. Its no surprise. It's probably the way you were being brought up with.

It makes me laugh how a person drops by my blog, Reads my stuffs, pry into my life, and then gets jealous at me.

Woman, Jealousy is a double edged sword. Be careful or you may just cut yourself too deep.
I've been quiet for a long enough time even when you have condemned my father, who is now in peace. Coming from a "Woman of God" as you openly proclaimed, that is just hyprocrital!

Oh yes, I'm talking about you. And yes, I am most definitely better than you because I said So. Well, at least I'm no liar. You are.

It is Easy to Love

Just this morning at work, while I had a little free time on hand, I decided to browse through the "Notes" section on Facebook and came across this, posted by a dear old friend of mine, the beautiful Jaymie Barbie .
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Why do people make love so complicated? Its easy to love really, its easy to lend a hand, accept someone for their faults and differences. Why put a boundary on love and not let that emotion in? Why judge and accuse someone of loving too much, when all this world really needs is a little more of that four letter word. Love has dissapeared because everyone tries to give it a definition, tries to chop it up, and give their own meaning to how they feel love should be, so much that they make it impossible TO love

Give it up, dont be afraid to admit when you love, Never feel guilty for it. Every single person in this world wants to feel love, when they dont have it, they criticize it, when they have it, theyre blinded to their kind of love, you will probably love differently than the next, but dont ever let anyone stand in your way and tell you HOW to love or what love really is, because only you feel love the way you do.


If you were placed in my life and ive given you a moment of my time, ive loved you, maybe even for the simple fact that you took the time to talk to me, to listen to what I had to say, maybe it goes deeper than a you’ve always been there for me, the people I put in my life ive fallen in love with them for many different reasons whether its a simple reason, or a complicated one. Im not afraid to admit that every one has made their way into my heart a little, and im sending you my love in hopes that you accept your love, whatever it may be
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This brings me back to an old post of mine, Love is Like Narcotic , where I was asking myself, if I, like every other person, have the capacity to love.

I now know, I do, if not equally as much, maybe more than I used to Ü

Formspring.me - Ask me Anything

What's your favourite song to dance to when your legs are aching?

That Thing You Do by The Wonders. This song always gets me Pumpin' and Groovin' regardless of the situation!

Click here, Ask Me Anything

Birthday.

Your Birthday is Silver

You are the shy type. You get so lost in your own thoughts that you sometimes forget to interact with other people. You are clever and bright. You find learning and thinking to be very easy. What you find difficult is relationships. You have never been able to understand people. You find both friendships and love to be difficult. It's hard for you to communicate your needs, hopes, and fears effectively.

What Color Is Your Birthday?

I find the first part thoroughly true but seriously doubt the second part as people close to me would know that I communicate my needs, hopes, and feelings, always. The core key to my belief in maintaining a good, strong bond would be Communication. Although i do not communicate my Fears overtly open, i still try to let the people I love know what makes me scared:- Losing them.

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On another note, It's my late dad's birthday today.

Papa, it has been 10 months now since we lost you, and it has been 10 months since the world lost one of its sunshine. I know, where ever you are, whether you're with Elvis in Heaven's Graceland, or soaring with the Angel's of Heaven, you're looking down on us, and on me. We missed you dearly. I know we will meet again. Someday.

Happy Birthday Papa. Remembrance of you everlasting.

(12th October 1947- 31st December 2009)

Formspring.me

If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?

Not spending enough time with Papa. I was so caught up with my job and feeling stressed out. I should have just let loose and enjoy every single balance minute I have with Papa. What's done cannot be undone, but I still wish it is something I can change.

Click here, ask me Anything

Monday Talks ♥

What would you do if you are out grocery shopping at Tesco and you chanced upon a weighing machine? I do not know about you, but I took the chance to weigh myself and thanks to home cooked dishes most of the night, I packed on 3 KGs! Imagine the horror... There goes my weight-loss efforts and diligent run on the treadmill. I am too much of a glutton to let home cooked dishes pass without taking a whack at it and the result is indeed prominent, as everyone seemed to note on the "chubby-er" side of me. Ö


I guess I should hit the treadmill again, eh?


Motto for the week:


Run healthy, Eat lightly, and for goodness sake, Lose some weight, Cindy! ;)


Have a happy Monday all. Pardon for the lack of post, I have so much to blog about but so little time! (heh... 'twas an excuse). I'll be blogging soon! :D

Should You Eat, Pray, or Love?

Well, Everyone knows that I have been a huge fan of Elizabeth Gilbert, most especially this particular. For those of you who have been ardently following on my posts from ages ago, knows about my raving reviews about it as well. Since the movie, starring the ever lovely Julia Roberts as Elizabeth, is releasing in the cinemas soon, I figured I might as well have a go at this thingamajic here! :D

You Should Eat

It's likely that you've been going through a hard time, and you need to rest and refuel. You could do with some nourishment, and not just the caloric kind. It's time to take care of yourself. You find happiness when you put your own needs first. You deserve the best, and you should be pampered more. Relax, indulge, and allow yourself to feel totally full. You've earned it.

Should You Eat, Pray, or Love?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!


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So please, I'm not FAT. I just need to EAT! ;)
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Saturday Talks ♥

My studying stint starts Next Wednesday! I wonder how being back for classes feels like. Hopefully I may be able to start getting the hang of it quickly! Just checked out my classes and tutorials and realised I only have 16 tutorial classes before Revision starts and voila - exams! Being a Part time student is stressfull indeed... Look at me, stressing myself out even before my first class starts. Boy, the art of being a Legal Student, we just think too much sometimes Ö


Also, this new blog seemed to be, well, pretty empty! Hence, here I am, attempting to blab, hoping that this might turn out to be a decent post, but rather, its just, well... Blabs. :P Hopefully in due time once classes starts and assignments starts pourng in, mycreative and genius mind may start having interesting Legal talks pouring in!

Legal talks aside, Mommy arrived safely to KL yesterday evening. We had a great heart to heart talk and bonding session. It has been a while. Its weird talking about dad in the past tense when less than a year back we still had dad around. With dad passing on, things changes, and I guess to a certain extent, we all changed too.

Have a happy weekend. Ü

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

So today, while I was in the office, I started surfing some Legal blogs, hoping that I would get some ideas for my own blog. Boy, I realised I definitely do need to start catching up on my studies now! I do not like the feeling of being left behind academically. I am not particularly competitive, however, I do like to be good (if not great) in what I am passionate about.

Level headed side of me thinks that I do need to hit the books as soon as I can, to get a head start. The procrastinator in me, on the other hand, still thinks that I have loads of time ahead to study. Considering the time frame, Class starts in September, and Exam is in May, gosh, it's only 8 months!

I'm running out of time.

Wake up Cindy!


I had better stop blabbing. I shall procrastinate today, and be hardworking tomorrow :D
(thats what I tell myself all the time)


Happy Monday! Ü

Legal-Babe : Oficially!

After two whole years of being in the work force, I decided to enrol myself in college again with the intention to finish what I had initially started. Then came the idea of depicting my work + Legal student life in a blog. I figured, Fun + Legal related stuffs pretty much sums (me) all up though I have to say there's nothing much too fun about this blog - it may be too literal and technical, unless of course you are a legal geek, just like me.


Bring on the books, bring on the cases, bring on the statutes, and bring out the Legal Geek in me!
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I hereby declare that everything written in this blog are purely of my own thoughts and perceptions and it meant no harm nor any malicious intent on anyone.
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Blog : Un-Moved.

So, Well... I have decided at the end of the day that moving my blog may not be a wise decision after all.. I have been a sporadic blogger as of late due to Working and studying all at the same time, so I may not be able to keep up. One blog. More than enough (=

Many apologies for my fickleness! ♥

Grief.

It is almost 7 months now, since dad passed away. Within 7 months, I have led a tumultuous life. It began with a new job, surrounding by new people. A new change. A new life. Gradually, grief lessens and I learnt how to smile again. I started living my life as though nothing happened. Yeah, there were times when I thought of dad, and there were times when tears would well up in my eyes, but I brushed them off as soon as it happened.

I wanted to be strong. I wanted to be unbreakable. I wanted to be okay, for my family. I once read a quote, Pretend to smile, and you'll be happier. So, that was what I did.

Until today.

I was reading "The Last Song" penned by one of my all time favourite author:- Nicholas Sparks. It was a very enjoyable book, almost like a chick-lit, until the middle of the book. The book speaks of a father, dying of stomach cancer, and how his daughter defiantly fought for him to live on. This, sounds so similar. Feels so similar. While reading it, it almost feels like I was warped back to a year and 7 months back:- When I first found out about dad's cancer. Dad, had stomach cancer too.

Vivid images and flashbacks of the whole journey was playing in my head, over and over again. From the surgery, to the removal of the whole tumour, to chemotherapy, to radiation, to dad getting well again, to suspected recurrences, to dad losing 30 Kg, to dad not being lucid, and finally till he lose consciousness.

The one image that lingered on my mind, was the image of dad, before breathing his last breath, stroking my hair, with tears rolling down his cheeks.

I have always been a daddy's girl, through and through. Losing him, was like sucking the breath out of me. I felt like I lost all directions in life. Living, without a reason.

I thought, I was over that; but reading The Last Song today proved otherwise. I almost could not finish the book. Many told me I didn't have to finish it, but I wanted to. It is my life battle to fight, and when I finally did finish it, I succumbed to my grief and I had to hid in the ladies for a couple of hours and cried my hearts out.

I miss my Papa terribly. I miss my best friend terribly.

I'm done with putting up a front. I'm done with being strong.

After 7 months, now is my time to grieve.

I wish I could hid my face in his chest and cry my hearts out. I wish I could have him stroking my hair and telling me that all will be okay. I wish I could see him smile and watch his excited face as he caught a fish on his fishing rod. I wish I could smell the musky scent of his after shave and feel the warmth of his loving hug when I'm back for a visit. I wish I could taste the cake he baked, and enjoy the fruit juices he was so good at making.

I wish I could have more time with my Papa. 22 years is not enough. I wish I could see him again, just once. Just once, so I can tell him just how much I Love him. So I can thank him for being such a wonderful, perfect dad.

I wish I didn't have to lose him.

Sometimes, I ponder at my own fate. Cruel. Painful. Yet kind in so many ways. The Man above has taken away the person I love the most, and gave me another. I guess, eventually I will come to terms with Life. At 22, I have not fully grasp the concept of loving my love ones. Maybe given time, I may gradually understand.

Given time...

I need to start blogging again! I wish there are more than 24 hours to my days, dont you? (:

Rainbow.

“We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lost sight of the reason for the journey, or miss a chance to see a rainbow on the way.”

The Road Less Travelled.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference

Robert Frost

"1 Malaysia"

I grew up as a village kid in a Malay Kampung where we have a "Pak Cik" peddling his bicycle every morning selling Nasi Lemak and Tapai later on in the evening. Every morning, my mum and I would take a slow breezy morning walk to the market right next to the mosque for our daily marketing. There, We would meet Kak Nor, and Aunty Manjit for daily banters followed by Chai session in Aunty Manjit's place.

Those were the days. 

and...

That.. is my version of a "1 Malaysia".

And before i go, I'd like to leave you with another version of my "1 Malaysia", this time a visual version of it! Its a regular Friday and the girls in office decided to play dress up and come to work in traditional clothings! It's a lovely sight and you bet we had so much fun with the Photo session as well! Ü

The Girls, all lined up, looking stunning...

Your's truly, a rare close up shot with a colleague of mine both donned in Saree.

So, what is your own version of a "1 Malaysia" ?

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Tortured Genius.

Soo.... Its another one of those Saturday nights when I'm miserably cooped up at home with absolutely no where to go and nothing to do! Times like this usually brings my interests to surveys and quizzes on the net which i fill out purely for the fun of it. So here's one of those that I found on HappySurfer 's Blog that made my eye go O.O . Now I know the reason behind my Sleeping issues... ö

You Are 79% Tortured Genius

You are smart. Brilliant in fact. And while it's a blessing, it's also a curse. Your head is filled with everything - grand ideas, insufferable worries, and a good deal of angst.

                                                         Are You a Tortured Genius?